Wednesday, May 21, 2008

I hate to be blue...

I woke up today with period cramps and just the overall feeling that she is coming. Which would make sense. She is supposed to be here on Friday and today is 2 days earlier so, yeah. This has happened to me so many months, you'd think I'd be used to it by now. Each month I deal with it a bit differently, sometimes better, but it just never gets easier. Today my heart aches. This cycle was my last shot to get pregnant before my dreaded one year TTC anniversary. I just didnt want to have to tell people "Oh, I've been trying for one year" Because then they say "A year, oh my gosh, thats long, have you been to the doctor, blah, blah"

And so I digress. Bring on cycle 12. And lets hope its my cycle!

8 comments:

Marijana said...

Oh Shannon, I'm so sorry about AF. Thank you so much for your kind comment on my blog; you always know the right things to say. One year mark of TTC has to be so disheartening.

But, it will happen for you. You are meant to be a mother; you will be a great one too. Hugs to you!

Does it cheer you up if I tell you the MH is an enormous Indians fan? I mean, like obsessed....bad news for me, but thought you might enjoy knowing that!

Lindsey said...

Oh Shan, I can't even imagine the emotions you are feeling right now. I'm so sorry hun and wish there was something I could say that would erase all your pain. I really hope it's not AF.
Hugs.

hopefaithlove said...

So sorry Shannon, Af is due for me on Sunday (while I will be at the beach) it is going to suck. Wish this whole TTC thing was easier. Praying for you!

Brooke said...

I'm really sorry, Shannon. It's funny to get emotional about someone I don't even know IRL, but you seem like such a great person and kharma is going to come back around to you! Big hugs.

♥RedRose101307♥ said...

i'm sory shan! AF sucks, but you know there's always hope!
i'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you

lovealways6565 said...

Oh Shannon. My heart aches for you hun. I know just how you feel and I know it must be hard on you. But you remember what you told me, everything happens in God's time and not a moment sooner. I heart you girl and if you ever need to talk or an internet shoulder to lean on i'm hear for you! ((hugs))

MrsDutchie said...

Oh Shannon, Im so sorry! I know what you mean about other ppl not understanding TTC. I have had so many friends this past year get pregnant the first cycle off BCP. I have tried to 'talk' to some of them about my struggle with TTC but like you said they dont understand. And its so hard cause it just makes you feel lonely. TTC is such a hard and emotional journey, and like you said you deal with it differently but it NEVER gets easier.
I wish all of us were closer so we could get together and have pitty parties and get togethers.
Lots of hugs!

Stephanie said...

Shannon I'm so sorry. I know the heart ache that you talk about. It was awful to go month after month with no success. :( I also just had our 1 year TTC anniversary, a week after we lost our baby. Ugh, it was awful. I hope that cycle 12 is the lucky one for you. (((BIG HUGS)))