Thursday, July 31, 2008

Scared

So about 2 months ago, I got this freckle thing on my lip. Its on my lower lip and seriously looks like a freckle. Its not raised, it doesnt hurt, I just cover it up with lip gloss and move on.

Well I was talking to a neighbor the other day and she was like "whats on your lip, I've never seen that before" I told her it just kinda showed up and I think its a freckle. She proceeded to tell me that she thinks (because she is not a nurse, doctor, etc so what the hell does she know) that its skin cancer and I should get it checked.

Of course, I Google "skin cancer on the lip" and see tons of pictures that look nothing like my lip but now I am worried I have skin cancer. Shit on a stick. I made an appt for a dermatologist but they cant see me for 2 weeks. 2 weeks of worrying about skin cancer on my stupid lip. Good lord.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Mini Vaca

We are back from DC and freakin' loved it. So fun. The good parts:

1. We got to see everything we wanted except Archives and Georgetown. Just not enough time in our 4 day trip
2. DC is beautiful and filled with amazing history. I cry every time at the Lincoln Memorial. Not alot of tears, just one or two slip out as I look down towards the Washington Monument and look back at Lincoln. Its like our special moment, lol
3. It was awesome to be able to celebrate our anniversary and just get away. We were walking past the Washington Monument at 3 on Saturday, which was our exact 5 year anniversary. Kind of a cool memory.

And the not so good parts:

1. It was hot. Im not talking kinda hot. I mean that we were both sunburned even while using sun screen and I got a dreadful heat rash. By the end of the day, my hair would be in a sweaty ponytail and I didnt care. It was that hot
2. We walked like maniacs. We had all-day metro passes but ended up walking to alot of places. Although I am in fairly good shape, I could barely walk by the third day. Today is not much better, it wasnt easy to get out of bed. Yikes.
3. We had the WORST hotel neighbors for 2 nights. Up to 3 AM, yelling and causing a commotion. Not much sleep was to be had which stunk.

Here are some of my favorite pics:

Dan and I on the steps of the Lincoln














Me in front of the Library of Congress
















Dan and I in front of the National Cathedral















Outside the Federal Reserve (Dan made us see that, the FDIC and the IRS- dork, lol)

Friday, July 25, 2008

Update

My body, which apparently despises me, thought that today was a good day for my period. So as we got on the turnpike for a 6 hour drive, for our only vacation, for our 5 year anniversary, where I was hoping to have some sex (LMAO) my period decided to show up. I rewarded myself with a huge chocolate milkshake and a fistful (i.e. 2) Motrin.

So whats up Cycle 14?! Im ready for you, bring it on. :)

Thank you for all the kind responses to my blog, it brought me alot of comfort. I look forward to chatting with everyone on Tuesday, once Im back in town.

Much love from DC, talk to ya'll soon!

Testing

Testing was completed this AM at 4:30 EST and the results are in. BFN. I also took my temperature, it has dropped but not as much as it normally does for 14 DPO. Im sure that will happen tomorrow though.

Im actually ok about the results. Part of it is because Im hopeful for next cycle and part of it its because I didnt expect a BFP this AM. 13 cycles of BFNs and its hard to imagine a BFP *sigh*

Oh and thank you to anyone who reads this. Your support makes my journey bearable. I love each of you and wont ever be able to fully explain how much I appreciate your support.

And now Im off to get ready and finish packing for our trip. Peace!


"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much."

Mother Teresa of Calcutta

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Early Anniversary

Since we are leaving early tomorrow for our trip, I wanted to do my "anniversary shout out" today. Saturday, July 26th, marks 5 years since I married Dan. I cant believe how quickly time has went but its fun to look back on all of our memories.

Dan and I met in college and started dating after he confessed to me during our senior year that he had a crush on me. We went on our first date to Houlihan's 8 years ago and the rest is history. This picture was taken the weekend we graduated:














We got engaged on the 4th of July. Dan was so nervous that he locked his keys into his car when he went to get the ring, except he didn't notice at first. He asked me to marry him under the finale of fireworks and as we joyously walked back to the car, he realized. And was mortified. Almost 2 hours later, a rent-a-cop was able to pry his door open and he would go home. Oh the memories! Here is a picture my mom took the weekend we got engaged:














We got married on an overcast Saturday but the rain stopped as we left the church and stayed out the rest of the day. I still have people tell me to this day that they have never seen a bride smile so much as she came down the aisle. And its true, I did smile like crazy. Because I was marrying the man who has filled my heart with so much love and joy thats it indescribable. This is Dan and I with our parents:




















Our wedding song was Sara Evans "I could not ask for more" It pretty much sums up the way we felt then and the way that I can only pray we feel forever.

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Video

A woman that I met at church sent me this video link. Its a video that a woman who suffered with infertility made. Its set to the Third Day song "When the Rain Comes"

Here are the lyrics to the song first:

When the rain comes it seems that everyone has
gone away
When the night falls you wonder if you shouldn't
find someplace
To run and hide / Escape the pain
But hiding's such a lonely thing to do

I can't stop the rain / From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain / But I will hold you 'til it goes away

When the rain comes you blame it on the things that
you have done
When the storm fades you know that rain must fall
on everyone
So Rest awhile / it'll be alright
No one loves you like I do

When the rain comes / I will hold you


And here is the video. If you watch it, pause my music player at the very bottom of the blog so you dont hear both. The video is touching, Id suggest a tissue or two.



Friday, July 18, 2008

Things I do in the 2 WW that annoy me

Im starting to annoy myself in the 2 WW. Here are some things I do, feel free to add your own:

1. I check the toilet paper when I wipe. For what you ask? Implantation spotting, of course
2. I lift my shirt up whenever I can to check my boobs. Why? To see if my nippes are darker or my boobs look veined. Uh-huh, cute right?
3. I touch my nipples when I can to see if they are sore. They are right now, I think from the fact that I have been touching them constantly
4. I compare my chart to other BFP charts on Fertility Friend. I do this for hours, it cant be healthy.
5. I refuse to recognize that my increase in urination stems from my increased thirst which is directly related to the fact that its 90 degrees here today. Im in denial

I know I do more annoying things but thats all I got right now. In summary, I have no real symptoms right now, but I'll be darned if Im not trying to make them up *sigh*

Good news? One week until testing. July 26th...bring it on!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Crosshairs and a gift

So I awoke this AM to an elevated temp and my dear ol' pal Fertility Friend finally gave me my crosshairs. The benefit to late crosshairs is that Im already 5 DPO. Yeah, pretty awesome. Should I try pineapple core? Um, well its already too late, which is ok with me. Now im just going to sit back and hope for my body to do its thing.

I also need some gift suggestions. Dan and I will be celebrating 5 years of wedding bliss next Saturday. I have always gotten him something along the lines of the "traditional" anniversary gift. For 5 years, the gift is supposed to be made out of wood. Help me, please!

Monday, July 14, 2008

The wedding

So we went to the wedding this weekend that didnt have any booze or dancing. To be honest, I didnt miss it too much. Sure, I love drinking and doing the electric slide just like anyone else, but it was kinda nice to not be hung over the next day or wonder if anyone saw me fall on my butt while doing the cha-cha slide. (which I have done. I think twice, so klassy)

Here are some photos for your viewing pleasure:

Dan and I
























The Bride, Laura, and I

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I hate waiting to O

I know everyone says that the 2 WW stinks, I agree. But for me, I hate waiting to O. I despise it. I think it comes from the fact that I have problems with ovulating in the past. If Im in the 2 WW, I know that either Im going to get a + HPT or my period in 2 weeks. If Im waiting to O, its up in the air. I know, i know, today is only CD 17, but I have been O'ing CD 14-15 for awhile now.

I suppose now would be a good time to practice patience.

In basement updates, ours still is a hell-hole. It is still leaking. It stinks. I hate it. The quotes we have gotten for waterproofing range from 8k-14k. Im serious, I need to grow a money tree. Actually, at this point, we just have to get it fixed and get over it. And thats the plan, hopefully to get it done within the next couple months.

Oh and finally, we have a wedding to go to this weekend. There is no drinking or no dancing. More to come on that situation...

Thursday, July 3, 2008

My chart and CAPTCHA

I am so excited to be off of work today, its nice to have a loooong weekend. I have a bunch of boring stuff I need to get done today and Dan is at work, so I know I can be super productive.

My two vents for the day are:

1. My chart. So guess who is 3 DPO on CD 11? Me. What the fudge? My Pre-O temps are typically pretty consistent, as are my post O temps. So why the heck did my temp shoot up to 98.1 today? I have to admit, I havent felt well the past couple days so maybe that it? But I have had some EWCM so...I dont know. I guess we'll just see how the chart adjusts as I continue to enter more temps.

2. CAPTCHA. Ya know, those letters that you have to enter as a security feature or to proect against spamming? I suck at it. I dont know whats wrong with me but I cant tell the Q from the G or the H from theN next to a L. AHHH. It drives me nuts. Sometimes, but really only sometimes, I get them on the first try. But not often. It makes blog commenting that much longer because I have to figure out the CAPTCHA. I love when they give me an easy one, almost like they feel bad for me. Poor CAPTCHA-inept girl.