I know that as I am waiting for my 2 WW to be over I should be focusing on the possibility that I am pregnant and trust me, I really am. But I am also being realistic and for some reason, the following thought keeps creeping into my head:
What IS God's plan for me.
When I decided to turn my IF journey over to God, I relied heavily on this verse:
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
And so I did this. I gave it over to God and trusted in his plan for us. But I guess my problem is that I dont see the plan. I dont feel the plan in my heart. I dont sense the plan in my soul. Alot of people I talk to have heard their plan. They are moving to IVF, they are being called to adoption. I just dont know what the plan is for me. I dont feel ready for IVF, I dont feel ready for adoption so if these IUI's dont work, then where do I go?
So I dont know, I guess Im just rambling. But Im also asking for prayers. Not for me to get pregnant, but for God to shed light on his plan for us. And for me, that I learn to listen better because maybe I just not hearing it.
Thanks in advance for any prayers you toss up, I appreciate them :)
2 days ago