Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Updates

I got my beta results back and things are looking good:

14 dpo 100
15.5 dpo 263 (I went late on Saturday so it was over 36 hours)
17 dpo 745


My first U/S is on May 15th, I will be 7 weeks. Im really excited!

So far, I feel great. I still have on and off cramping and sore breasts but other than that, I dont have many symptoms. I actually woke up this AM and felt like my symptoms lessened, which led to a mini-freakout but I know I need to get over that. I never thought Id be so scared to be pregnant but I guess I just feel very attached to sweet little Bubs already!

I hope everyone is having a great week!

So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

~Isaiah 41:10~

Monday, April 27, 2009

Thank you, Updates and NIAW

Its been a few days since I found out I am pregnant and I've been through a whirlwind of emotions. It started with shock, moved into fear and now has developed into pure excitement and love for the child I am growing inside of me. I already feel rather protective of our little Bubs (which is what Dan and I have decided to call the baby until we know the sex) and actually apologized when I ate a hog dog yesterday. (seriously? I forgot that pregnant women shouldnt eat them but they are so good! I'll try to be better from here on out!)

In updates, I only have results of my first beta at 14 DPO, which was 100. My 2nd draw was taken Saturday afternoon and my last draw will be this AM so I will have the final 2 numbers by tonight. Once I get the final 2 numbers, I get to set up my first U/S for 7 weeks! Holy moly, thats only a few weeks away.

I really need to thank all of you for your well wishes. I read them all back last night and was overcome with tears and it just solidified how greatful I am for each and every one of you. So thank you!

Finally, this week is National Infertility Week, sponsored by NAIW. I just ask that everyone takes a minute to say a prayer or think a kind thought for the millions of woman who struggle with IF each day. I know that, for me, IF is something I wont ever forget. The pain and struggle associated with it will forever haunt my heart. For anyone who is still TTC, please know that you are always in my thoughts.

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Just the other night the baby was cryin’
So I got out of bed rocked her awhile
And I held her tightAnd I told her it would be all right
And my mind went back to a few years ago
When we tried so longWe almost gave up hope
And I remember youComin' in and tellin’ me the news
Oh man we were livin’
Goin’ crazy in the kitchen
We danced and screamed and held each other tight
We laughed until we cried

Friday, April 24, 2009

IUI #1...


I cannot believe I am typing this but I am pregnant! IUI #1 was a success!

Here is the story:

On Wednesday, Dan and I went to get some pregnancy tests for me to use Friday. I told Dan I wouldnt use one until Friday but, I dont know what came over me, I decided to use it on Wednesday night at 12 DPIUI. I used it and then left it on the counter and went to help Dan un-pack groceries. I came back 5 minutes later and I saw it. A second line. I couldnt believe it!

I took the test into the kitchen and Dan couldnt believe it either. Once we got over the shock, we hugged and praised God for this blessing!

I tested again yesterday and used a digital. Here is a picture of me holding it:



We told our families last night. We told my family at my grandpa's birthday party. We took a picture of everyone and Dan told them to say "Cheese" He pretended the first picture didnt work and then on the second one, told them all to say "Shannon is pregnant" (Lulu-I totally stole this idea from you, lol) At first, they all said it kinda slowly and then everyone started yelling and crying, it was so cool! Here are a couple pictures from last night (they are kinda dark, sorry, but I think you can click on them and they get bigger)

Before we told them...

...and after!

In regards to symptoms, the only thing really different was the cramping. I have had on and off cramping since 3 DPIUI but I chalked it up to the Clomid. The cramping got really bad at 10 DPIUI and that was what made me test at 12 DPIUI. Other than that, I felt exactly like I do before AF.

My EDD based on a few online calculators is January 1, 2010. How cool! I begin beta blood word today and also will get info on my first appointment so as I get that info, I will update my blog.

I really need to thank each and every one of you for your continued support, friendship and prayers. I read alot of blogs and each of you girls mean so much to me and I look forward to continiung to support you in whichever portion of your journey you are in.

"For this child I prayed" 1 Samuel 1:27






Monday, April 20, 2009

What is my plan?

I know that as I am waiting for my 2 WW to be over I should be focusing on the possibility that I am pregnant and trust me, I really am. But I am also being realistic and for some reason, the following thought keeps creeping into my head:

What IS God's plan for me.

When I decided to turn my IF journey over to God, I relied heavily on this verse:

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

And so I did this. I gave it over to God and trusted in his plan for us. But I guess my problem is that I dont see the plan. I dont feel the plan in my heart. I dont sense the plan in my soul. Alot of people I talk to have heard their plan. They are moving to IVF, they are being called to adoption. I just dont know what the plan is for me. I dont feel ready for IVF, I dont feel ready for adoption so if these IUI's dont work, then where do I go?

So I dont know, I guess Im just rambling. But Im also asking for prayers. Not for me to get pregnant, but for God to shed light on his plan for us. And for me, that I learn to listen better because maybe I just not hearing it.

Thanks in advance for any prayers you toss up, I appreciate them :)

Saturday, April 18, 2009

One week down and Delayed pics

One week down in the 2 WW, one to go. I was thinking of gettin' crazy and testing early, maybe Wednesday at 12 DPO but who am I kidding. Im going to wait until Friday or heck, probably Saturday. Most of you know I have a horrible fear of the HPT and its mean one line so thats why I very rarely test.

Today, my sister and I are running a 5k and then Dan and I are going to celebrate his grandma's 90th birthday. It should be a fun day!

Here are some pics from Easter that I wanted to share. They are me with each of my grandparents. My grandparents have helped shaped alot of who I am today and I feel very fortunate to have met all 4 of my grandparents in my lifetime.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!


Grandpa Bob

Grandma Sophie and Grandpa Ted

Monday, April 13, 2009

IUI and Adsense

I didnt really want to post about my IUI in my Easter post but I thought I would give a quick update. We got to the clinic at 7:30 (after running through another building to make it there in time) and then Dan gave his sample. We then had alot of waiting. We had to wait for them to wash the sample and then wait for the IUI. The IUI itself was painless, the catheter went right in and I had some mild cramping but thats all. I am glad to have it over and have now entered the beloved 2 WW.

Ok, now Im switching gears- are any of you using Adsense on your blog page? If not, I highly recommend it. I put it in a couple months ago and just checked my account and Im making some money. Not a ton of money but I am making some. If you havent put it on there yet, all you have to do is add a gadget from your dashboard, its simple!

Hope everyone has a wonderful week! I am off of work until Wednesday, its nice to relax!

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter and my cross

What a beautiful day! Its wonderful to wake today and know that Jesus Christ died for me, a sinner, so that I may live in the Grace of God.



"In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand"


We went to church yesterday so that I could get ready for Easter this morning. In the service, our pastor talked about how we each have our own cross to bear. Jesus' cross was the burden of all our sins, past and future. Thinking about this made me think about my infertility. Its been such a heavy cross to bear at times but its also been a rewarding, humbling and spiritural process. As I look back on the past two years, I am no where near the person I was when I began this jounrey. Sure, I might be a bit more jaded and bitter at times but overall, I have learned patience, compassion, appreciation and an unending love for Jesus Christ. I dont know if I would have had opportunity to learn these things without my cross, infertility. Because of this, I thank God for loving me enough and trusting me enough to let me take this journey.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:28-29

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Tomorrow is the day

Its on! I have triggered and I am ready for the IUI tomorrow. Thank you all for your continued prayers and support, they mean the world to me.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Standstill

My ovaries are being stubborn and my follicles have not grown at all since yesterday. So I continue to wait and hope that my body can gets itself in gear by tomorrow or Friday. Because if I dont trigger by Friday, Im out this cycle. They arent open on Sunday (Easter) and Monday looks like it would be too late. It all comes down to the next two days. Come ON guys!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Slacker

Im alive, Im alive! I've been reading everyone's blogs but just realized that its been almost a week and I haven't updated mine.

So this is the big week- IUI time! I had an u/s today and my follies on CD 15 are still not big enough to trigger. I wont lie, I was dissapointed. I have been having some strong O signs so I thought today would be the day but, in all reality, CD 15 is early for me, even on Clomid. I O'd CD 17-19 the last three times I took it so I do have a few more days to go. Hopefully tomorrow is my trigger day and the IUI will be on Thursday. I will know more soon.

Other than that, not much is going on. I love the week of Easter, its a nice time to reflect on the sacrifice that was made so that we could live free. The most quoted part of the bible sums it up:

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

John 3:16

Pretty amazing if you ask me! Hope everyone has a great week!





Wednesday, April 1, 2009

New Month, New Cause

I seriously forgot today was the first day of April. I dont know where I have been...stuck in March, I guess. But since I just realized, I wanted to change my Cause of the Month on the right side. This month, my cause is March of Dimes.

March of Dimes is an important cause to me because my sister was a preemie. She was due in October but was born in July and was only a couple pounds when she was born. My sister has grown into such a beautiful and confident woman but I know my family often thinks of that small, sweet baby and remembers when they didnt know if she would make it.

My sister, mom and I are doing the March of Dimes walk at the end of the month and it will be a nice time to spend together and celebrate all of the great things done by this organization.

In 101 news, I have been slacking. I have 2 recipes to post to my food blog, I bought stuff to make my own greeting cards and I have the movie Citizen Kane (one of the classics I want to watch) sitting on top of the DVD player but havent put it in. I need to get moving!

Im on my last Clomid pill...thankfully. I have been a cranky mess this week and Im sure the pills are to blame. I am hoping the s/e diminish soon and that my ovaries get themselves in gear!

Hope everyone is having a good week!

Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson