I must begin by telling all of my readers that Dan has become an amazing Dad. We had some bumps in the beginning as we figured out our roles in taking care of the babies but now that we are 2 months in, I can honestly say we are both doing our share to take care of E&J.
Now the one thing that Dan does struggle with is getting up when either of the babies cry. I must have some kind of crazy mommy instinct because I hear a noise and I am up and ready to feed. But Dan? Not so much. He is in a haze when I wake him up. Which leads us to "his baby" I noticed early on that when I would get up and look over at Dan, he would be holding a pillow and patting its back. When I would ask him about it, he would tell me "Im holding the baby!" Hmmm, really? But its more than just holding the pillow. I have caught him walking around with the pillow, rocking it and even trying to burp it- All in his sleep! One time, I had to have him walk down to the nursery to look into E&J's crib and see that they were both there and he was, indeed, holding a pillow. Its honestly the funniest thing and I spend a good few minutes laughing at him when he does it before giving him a good nudge and ripping the "baby" from his arms. Too funny.
I also wanted to comment on the adventures breastfeeding. Man, I don't think I realized how hard it was going to be, especially with twins. I have had so many emotions with this experience. I've enjoyed the closeness that I have felt with E&J. I have also been frustrated by the time commitment that it takes to either be the sole feeder of the babies or to have to pump in between feeding another baby so that Dan can feed the other. I have also been frustrated by the fact that I can't always pump enough milk for both babies now that they are eating 4+ oz each. But one thing I have learned is that whatever I am able to do for E&J, its enough. I don't need to be SuperMom. It's ok to supplement with formula. I don't need to get up in the middle of the night all the time just to pump while everyone else in my house (babies included!) are sleeping. I don't know if I was try to prove to myself that I COULD be SuperMom but I can tell everyone, that in the end, its better to be realistic and to do what's best for yourself, too. A Happy Mama= Happy Babies.
That being said, I am going to continue breastfeeding and pumping when I return to work next week. (And wow, going back to work is going to be a blog post that Im not quite ready to tackle) My goal is 3 months. And after that? Who knows?! We'll see how I (and my boobs) are feeling then.
Tomorrow is Josh's belly button surgery. We talked to the surgeon's office today and since they are going to have to put him under, there is a chance he will have to stay overnight. Please send him some thoughts and prayers. I will be sure to update after his surgery is done.
Hanging out and Playing with Mommy. And YES, Joshua is smiling! :)